What is ur New Year Plan ?

We want to say bye bye to 2011 soon . Time is past by very fast very thing would start by new soon(only few days to left) . I am looking forward what would happen on 2012 , hope it wouldn't bad as like this year > < !
和你的过去 ， 已经快要一年了。有时候会想，今年2011圣诞节。。我们去年的圣诞节是怎样过的。过几天的倒数， 我们去年又是怎样过的？时间真地过得很快， 这样又要一年了（真的是一眨眼就过了）。不知道你会不会也像我这样“想太多” ？说真的， 还真希望你会想一想“它” 。（第一个愿望）希望以后。。。。。，对就是这个愿望。希望它会实现~

Planning for my new year eve party ^^

Hate Exam since from kindergarten untill NOW !!

Merry Christmas ^^ Last time to celebrated with you guys~

23th DEC

I do have a great X'mas eve vit my classmates .It was awesome ! We're changed the x'mas gift to each other by grab the names .Shabu in my seremban house , taken photos , chit chat .... was a wonderful nite .

24th DEC 

Played the mahjong vit my class mates .LOL!I am the winner who won the money from them in that night.woohoo~  :) How lucky I am and don't be envy of me XD bcause I am LUCKY GIRL .

25th DEC

Back from seremban and continuous for the next round .After prepared , we're went to KLCC for watched the movie @TGV . Arrgghh~~felt so painful while watched the movie .Especially Tom flied in to the room and he head was hit by the window ....ewww! non-stop to taken the photos XD

OUR FRIENDSHIP IS NEVER GO END!

Even though my x'mas isn't same of last year maybe I lost to him , but I'm still alive to be continuous and enjoy the rest of my life! cheer up girl , it might be a happiness of you . 

changed

Seem like long time no write my blog . hmm.....finally , I'm moved to seremban . A lot of my frens and relative was said "SO FAR dont you?" after heard the GOOD NEWS . lol ! However it is far but also is a good chance to gave us change the new environment vit everything is NEW! We should learn it ! Learn to live in without relative and try to learn in without any help from frens .
 

                                 

What a awesome day to me^^
One is he already back to the home from hospital .That mean he is near to the rehabilitation ^^I'm so happy(yeah)!!
Another one is I was celebrated the b'day to my best friend. Although it is last chance to celebrated the b'day to her but it is a good and unforgettable b'day she had! Actually is quite touching for me when she was split the gift.Because she have a great great guy to love her and protect her~

         I LOVE ALL OF YOU !!!!!!    ><

my tears almost wan to flow out from my eyes~

What a bad news from you!I feel painful from my heart like thousands needles  fly on me and my heart drop to thousands meters from the hill!I just knew you are in the hospital for few days later(tuesday till thursday ).Causes you get INTESTINAL INFLAMMATION :( !!  I'm so worries about you now,are you all right?Why it will happened to you?Because you ate the wrong things??I have no idea...because I'm not your anyone.That's why I late to knew.I really very hope you will quickly recover and may god blessing you by everyday n everyday!!Might insomnia tonight!!Pls....god bless him!

Have been long time no write n refresh my blog

Start to busy on my assignments ,whoooo(have a sigh)....Can not imagine how busy for the following days that there will be waiting for me.Last night,I was discussed about "2012" with my house mate.I'm just realize ....I'm scare to die and also fear of missing every things around me,especially my family.I know this is a sensitive topic but I guess most of you will think about it.When I was in the form 3 ，I was insomnia for three days and even cried.Because I'm not dared to slept when I closed my eyes all those negative scenes was shown on my mind!That is horrible and full of afraid . However, somebodies choose to not believe but I choose to believe it(perhaps u can say that I stupid or silly ). Therefore, I'm decide to LOVE my family  because we do not know  when they would be leave me.Make a deep breath and looking forward.

Already passed for 8 months later,I'm still in S LIFE.The days without you are not very well but I try to make my life more exciting and colourful even though I'm dislike it. No matter how I miss you,everything should be gone.Although my mouth say to forget you but I know I'm lying myself and my heart .Reality is so cruel and you  may not use any reasons to stay for how much unwilling that you do not want to accept .Perhaps you have been accustomed for you life.I LOVE YOU!

Nervous

Tomorrow is the last day of exam.I'm start to be tension n nervous.Detecting the time for exam is near of me.Now,i'm start to forget the past chapters and the times are not enough to use.However,my face and action look like nothing but my mind is always remind me"tension,nervous,scary....."!!

May god bless me,PLS!!i know u are always around of us and protect the people who believe in you!

I hope i can be one of the yellow ball ,but not the red in the middle.

thursday,11.45p.m

Dream of you when i was slept just now

I was dreaming you just now (family gathering)==,quite suddenly to me.But nice....haha..Although i will miss you,but much better than bfore.

Hmmm.......day last year,we are just know to each other(8/8/2010,meet from fair).Now,both of us become stranger.I thought we can be friend again,but we're not.Both of us still has a thorn on our heart.Maybe we only can let it left at there...for longer.

he look like u!

11/06/2011,raining day.

i went to sunway lagoon vit family.Almost 10 years i didn't go to sunway lagoon....so exited !!hmm....everything is changed already.Familiar but very strange.But the drinks n foods r soso exp from the out side food.Before u want to check in,the staffs were started to check ur beg ==!
I saw a uncle he brought 3 bottles of the soft drink and the staff is not allowed him to in.So he drink 3 bottles of the soft drink vit his son in-front the staff.lol!
I saw a guy he's looked like you @@! First,i thought tat is u when looked more closer ,hmm.......he more slim than u,lol!I played the game vit him,hahaha!besides,we're seat closed...
He is came from indonesia and also is the chinese in indo.
Start to miss you.....how come?

18/06/2011,sunny day

i dreamed of u yesterday nite.i went to your house and still in relationship together.I can clearly saw and touched ur face.not much changed from you.....still love to talking joke,play fun vit ur frens ...!besides,i went to manjalara last nite.I passed ur house and saw u room still in light.hmm....almost 11++pm lorh,wat r u doing over there?Saturday still need to wake up earlier and work.maybe u're turned on the light to slept?I hav no idea~
when i saw ur house,it made me thought of a lot of things.A lotsss!

I LOVE YOU,Dear~

19/06/2011,midnight.

i still writing my blog nw.There was a time i didn't write my blog as well!I love to sharing my feel through the blog,tat is the way tat i can release myself and feel more comfortable.i decide to participate the model competition.First,i wan to achieve my dream.Second,i wan show to u tat i can do it better!I wan making my life to be more colorful and enrich!Therefore,i start to my DIET plan!!I am serious then!

R u feel ok now?(worrry)

I just get to know u r sick then.I was totally worry bout u.How was ur sick?still be in serious?Take care ya><!
Y i so care bout those silly things??Oh no!!arzzz~~~~
But when i saw ur profile,i just realized u r renamed ur name from AXXX XX XXX XXX to AXXX XX.Feel like everything is become to new and plain.Besides that ,u r try to be a brand new memory for ur life.Did i wan to happy or ...?
Moreover,i saw a gal post a status on ur wall.She's called u my dear......(jump to hell suddenly)!I so curious of her.Who's is tat gal whom calling u MY DEAR?Ur parent???or another"new" fren?Congrat...........T.T.Sure i am not happy if it is true but i will wishing u.Bcause u happy than i'll also feeling happy.
Break up almost 3 months.T.T
01/05/2011,11:50pm

Moved already~

I moved my room today.I moved all the memories from old to new.Actually that room is full of of memories between you and me.Started relationship,first time knew how to been to my house,first time fetched me at there,first"kiss"of u and me,first hang out,first time sent me back to there after shopping or ate dinner vit ur family,first time change the relationship at fb from "single" to "in the relationship",first time done the scout for ur Birthday present,first time said "Happy Birthday"to you,first time played the Birthday piano song to u through the phone,first time thought how to wrote the Birthday card for you,first time cried bcause of u,first time hug u tight into ur warm breast........
I miss it SO!Just a year.........many things are happened around of me.I almost cant believe all those things.It isn't truth as.It isn't truth as?
Maybe new is better than old?Really full of memories.
Sometimes,i was think of I Love You more than i love myself when we're in relationship.But ,now i was think of u r love urself more than u love other person?
I hate my constellation sometimes.Love think the past and like nostalgia always!why they can forget it easily?But,i still miss it so!why they can act like nothing?But,i still care of him?why they can go for anywhere?But,i still over here!
AXXX!!!
write:27/11/2011,11:59pm

U R LEAVE FROM ME,FROM MY HAND~FAR....FAR.....away! T.T

I hear it

i hear a sound was slash.So clear and truth.When can i start my class?I so bored here,make me keep thinking a lot of THINGSSSS!i dunno wat's going on to me.Rineii~~~~
Yesterday(18.04.2011),i went out vit my fren.He invited me go for a movie's.This is my first time went out vit a guy for the movie after i break up vit u.The feeling is totally different from u.But it can make me memories the memory of me and u obviously.We're always love shopping,watching movie's,dinner at 1u.I love to hold ur hand when shopping.Bcause i felt so warm from ur hand n safe to stay vit u.Moreover,i also love to smell the smelling of ur perfume.But....now.T.Tall r gone.
Last sunday i went to pc fair.I was invited the same guy to accompany went to bought the printer.I thought if tat person is u,u will give me some idea i sure~But....everything are gone.T.T
I...I........was nothing can say.

: (

I hate sick><!--So exhausting...... I miss u so~today(16/4/2010),we're leave to each other already 2 months.How r u lately?well...I'm start to get boring on mine life(without u and ur voice around of me),especially saturday and sunday.Where r u now?T.T
So quiet now till i am afraid.Quiet is because i cant hear ur voice,quiet because i cant hold ur hand tight.Quiet is because i cant hear ur heartbeat when i hug u,quiet because i cant see u any more.T.T
So moody then.CRYING.....(listening music)

Memories~

Today i went to Giza mall for my dinner.Besides,we went to the sushi restaurant(I-Chiban)"again". I'm seat on the same place, same table,same direction as well.T,T
Full of memories...(to depress my tears).Luckily i no order the same meal T.T
i see ur photo just now,u're looking good n happy now.
But the memories always around me~
I MISS YOU~

Did you know ~

I'm still LOVING you!.........
Although that is how hurt i am.I still waiting a miracle from me and you !I almost thinking of you.Even a song,place or idol that you always act ,sing or we're went the place b4,all the memories are naturally emerges in my mind.Can i looked back to last year??
I was tiring to suppress my feelings and make my self to smile and happy.Therefore,i keep going out with mine frens, to forget YOU temporarily.I was trying to make my self tired and tired ,even back home late.Bcause u always asked me "y u dont want hang out vit ur frens?u doesn't feel boring when u stay at the house?Find some things to do lar~."I'm still remember these word that you asked me b4.So i keep to making my life to be more colorful as u hope me to do.I still remeber it~.............did u know?sometimes i was feel so stupid and regret .Dunno y~just hav the feelings of these.
Hard to delete ur memories in mine mind!




I am waiting a MIRACLE~Did u?

I still miss you day by day...

It already be a part of my habit to thinking bout you.Did you know?we're broke up more than a month,but i still care of you.Sometimes,i will think of wat r u doing nw?heavy rain today,hope you r drive safety from your work.Why you no on9 tonite?watching tv,playing game,hang out vit ur frens....?? seem like a person tat gonna crazy soon.Sometimes,i will cried when i was missing you badly,even though when i hear Lihom song ,you r the first person who comes out from my mind,especially "你不知道的事"n "需要人陪".i try to no think of you,but i cant...!almost thinking of you by everyday,just depend how long i will.Maybe..u r start to forget me.I still keep it(the cow),the first x'mas present from you.B4 i sleep,i always look of it and say good nite to him(you).

一切就这样结束了。

16/02/2011，我会用记这一天，是我不想面对的事，终于。。发生了！！而且是我从没想过。我以为它不会那么快发生的吧，甚至不要发生！！！可是。。我都错的。原来，很多事，不能一切都由你掌控的。说要变就变，说要离就离，说要来就来。。。原本还好好的，却突然变成回忆，原本很甜蜜，却换来冷淡。原本付出的很多，却换来。。。。悲伤！有时候在想,为什么爱的太深，付出得多，却换来的不是你想要的结果。当初。。如果没遇见对方，那现在的我市怎样的呢？虽然我真的很珍惜，可是，都已经不能挽回。虽然我有多么不舍，还能怎样呢？放手是会好一点，因为。。。。。。。我已经。。已经。。。开此留不住你的心了。留着一个人却留不住你的心，会开心吗？短短3个星期。。。在怎么想你，爱你。。。都已经是我自己一个人的事了。不能像以前那样，和你分享。我的心，真的很痛。。。很痛。。。。。我只能说，我需要从谷底慢慢的。。。爬回上来。一直以为，你是我最后一个也是永久的一个。可是，都不能得。我这次，真的跌到片体鳞伤。心碎了又在碎。。。谁可以把它在合拼起来？爱得太深，太容易让自己牺牲，太容易让自己沉沦，太容易不顾一切满是伤痕。我太苯明知道你是错的人，名知道这不是缘份，但是我还奋不顾身！！！！即使眼泪哭到快没了，我还是想哭~~在一个星期前，朋友都骂我笨，傻！！可是，我还一直以为有奇迹，还一直不肯放手，甚至到情人节那天，会和我说“自谦都是在吓我”！我真的傻。。。
一个星期，我竟然瘦了3公斤！！我自己也不相信。可是我却体会到，原来当一个人痛到彻底时，真的哭就会饱了。一天只吃一餐。原本55的我，现在52。今天，又在发觉自己瘦了。所以，现在的我已经瘦到51.5公斤。短短的两个星期，我就可以瘦那么多。我自己也不相信。
我没后悔过爱你，我很开心能做你第一任女朋友。很开心你之前那么得疼我。我不后悔，我们曾经交往过，我很开心我能认识到你的家人和朋友。

T.T

Down n neutral

Feel like long time no write my blog...today is 20/1/2011,12.18 a.m!
I dunno how to explanation my feeling now.....down?or just neutral?i really dunno!after that day(saturday),we less to context each other except FB~perhaps,i sake wat u told me ....u need freedom....u need more freedom......perhaps i really doing wrong.....i cant give u freedom enough that u wan~although i just wan u send me a msg a day.....Sometimes i really hate ur serious face when u talking to me.......bcause i afraid..!!!it not funny at all!i really afraid ~that day(sunday) i really afraid u will told me something that i dun1 to know n heard!bcause ur expression really looks serious n scare me~i hate tat felt.....I cried in-front of u not bcause i always like to cry n so "small gas",it is ue expression,i care ur expression!when u getting serious the whole atmosphere is turn to -0 ~I LOVE YOU~~I REALLY LOVE YOU~do u know?do u feel it?do u see it?do u hear it?i miss u~do u know?I hope can hug u tightly now~i just hope u dun1 chat or talk to me vit the serious expression ~it really scare me~sometimes i really worry bout u~
I dun1 the serious atmosphere !!!!