Down n neutral

Feel like long time no write my blog...today is 20/1/2011,12.18 a.m!
I dunno how to explanation my feeling now.....down?or just neutral?i really dunno!after that day(saturday),we less to context each other except FB~perhaps,i sake wat u told me ....u need freedom....u need more freedom......perhaps i really doing wrong.....i cant give u freedom enough that u wan~although i just wan u send me a msg a day.....Sometimes i really hate ur serious face when u talking to me.......bcause i afraid..!!!it not funny at all!i really afraid ~that day(sunday) i really afraid u will told me something that i dun1 to know n heard!bcause ur expression really looks serious n scare me~i hate tat felt.....I cried in-front of u not bcause i always like to cry n so "small gas",it is ue expression,i care ur expression!when u getting serious the whole atmosphere is turn to -0 ~I LOVE YOU~~I REALLY LOVE YOU~do u know?do u feel it?do u see it?do u hear it?i miss u~do u know?I hope can hug u tightly now~i just hope u dun1 chat or talk to me vit the serious expression ~it really scare me~sometimes i really worry bout u~
I dun1 the serious atmosphere !!!!